Friday, December 30, 2011
Thursday, December 29, 2011
Merry Christmas 2011!
pictures not in order, some stolen from fb
it was a truly wonderful christmas gathering with friends. so glad we finally managed to meet up after such a long time, and everybody's back from wherever they went. food was amazing, and we had so much fun!
went to charis' city harvest christmas drama on sunday morning, awesome as always, and i received a lot of God's grace.
How was your christmas? (:
omg ive been so busy recently, really very very busy. every single day im just packed. rehearsals for mahler 5 have started, it's 7.30pm to 10.30pm everyday. yesterday went to science centre, library and shopping, day before was zoo, bugis shopping and east coast park. yes, i've been bringing a kid around.
in the meantime, the year is going to end in 3 days time and i wish i can turn time back! homework mountain is piling heaps and heaps oh dear....
and it can only get worse from now sigh :( sorry for the lack of posts, my life is happening but i dont even have time to connect to online!
in the meantime, the year is going to end in 3 days time and i wish i can turn time back! homework mountain is piling heaps and heaps oh dear....
and it can only get worse from now sigh :( sorry for the lack of posts, my life is happening but i dont even have time to connect to online!
Thursday, December 15, 2011
long self-pitying rant.
Everybody have those days when they feel fat, and so do i. No im not skinny and perfect, guys stop kidding me. Honestly, who doesnt have flaws?
I’ve a pear shaped body, i’ve big hips. And once in awhile i get really sad about how fat my hips are. And today was really bad. I started surfing through the net for ways to reduce fats, pictures of skinny people, pictures of curvy people, of fat people, all sorts of ways to make myself feel better and it didnt work. So i was wallowing in self pity, and that led to a really big pity party all by myself sigh.
I think i deserve to wallow in self pity because:
1. i have ginormous hips.
so many times ive bought shorts and cant fit into those. i tell myself all ive to do is lose 3 inches (which is freaking a lot, cause that’s 8cm) and i can be normal. but no, i cant. i love shorts, but its so hard to find a pair that can make me look normal. im forever looking for shorts and buying shorts cause none fits me fine :(( I’m not able to wear a normal swimsuit, the one piece kind because my hips are so freaking big, and i have stretch marks. I need to wear the 2 piece kind, with shorts.
2. i live in jurong west.
do you know how freaking far that is from everywhere else? all my friends stay in either serangoon gardens or east coast. nobody even stay remotely close to me, nobody to take train home with me, nobody invite me to their houses for fun cause i’ll always turn down, its too far :( i had to turn down 2 job offers because its too far, often a lot of events ive to leave earlier just so i can get home at a decent time. after concerts i cant hang out with everybody else for supper :(((( if i want to meet my friends in town, i’ve to take 1.5 hours because i need half an hour to get ready, shower/makeup/get dressed, and 1 hour to travel.
3. i am an IB student.
You have no idea how shitty it is, i’ve no more social life, i’ve no sleep. Ive to turn down next year trips to London and Berlin because there’s no way i can cope. I only have enough time and energy for school alone. Im even going to quit my 3 year job of ballet pianist (no income!), stop playing in SNYO and OMM, which will probably kill me with the love of orchestra music i have. Yes, i want to be a professional orchestra player. I never knew the true meaning of rushing deadlines until this year. So many times, rushing essays out through the night with cups of Lipton Tea and even Nescafe (causing me to be nausea and cant eat for an entire day cause im caffeine-intolerant) until the very last minute through assembly just so i can hand in on the dot. so many so many times, coming home late after continuous orchestra rehearsals every night, by the time i settle down it’s midnight, and then i start work. All those shitty nights when i really just break down, then quickly wipe away my tears so as not to waste time and continue doing work. Missing out on dinners at home.
Okay and the above 3 big reasons are why i think i deserve to wallow in self-pity. Then i decided no, self-pity is selfish, it’s self indulgent and silly.
So i came up with reasons why i SHOULD NOT wallow in self-pity:
1. I have Christ, what can be more important? Christ-centred life, not self-centred life!!!
2. Im going to have an awesome 18th birthday party!
3. I have many nice pink things. Pink macbook, pink texas calculator, pink room with pink walls and floral curtains and floral bedsheets/pillow case, pink hello kitty desk lamp
4. I have tons of clothes in my wardrobe yet to be worn out
5. I am not broke
6. My hair is always in good shape/colour
7. I have done 1500 words of essay today (!!!!)
8. I can bake.
9. I have a wonderful supportive family, both immediate and extended
10. I have tons of wonderful friends who truly love and care for me
11. I have people reading my blog and twitter about my rants and i should not burden them
12. It’s holiday right now
13. Im not that fat actually, its just my hips. If i dont look down, it’s fine. I can wear skirts.
14. I had chicken soup for dinner.
15. It’s time for me to shower
Okay and my mood is lightened up! Thank you all for listening to my rants and im not going to wallow in self-pity anymore, going to shower!!!
I’ve a pear shaped body, i’ve big hips. And once in awhile i get really sad about how fat my hips are. And today was really bad. I started surfing through the net for ways to reduce fats, pictures of skinny people, pictures of curvy people, of fat people, all sorts of ways to make myself feel better and it didnt work. So i was wallowing in self pity, and that led to a really big pity party all by myself sigh.
I think i deserve to wallow in self pity because:
1. i have ginormous hips.
so many times ive bought shorts and cant fit into those. i tell myself all ive to do is lose 3 inches (which is freaking a lot, cause that’s 8cm) and i can be normal. but no, i cant. i love shorts, but its so hard to find a pair that can make me look normal. im forever looking for shorts and buying shorts cause none fits me fine :(( I’m not able to wear a normal swimsuit, the one piece kind because my hips are so freaking big, and i have stretch marks. I need to wear the 2 piece kind, with shorts.
2. i live in jurong west.
do you know how freaking far that is from everywhere else? all my friends stay in either serangoon gardens or east coast. nobody even stay remotely close to me, nobody to take train home with me, nobody invite me to their houses for fun cause i’ll always turn down, its too far :( i had to turn down 2 job offers because its too far, often a lot of events ive to leave earlier just so i can get home at a decent time. after concerts i cant hang out with everybody else for supper :(((( if i want to meet my friends in town, i’ve to take 1.5 hours because i need half an hour to get ready, shower/makeup/get dressed, and 1 hour to travel.
3. i am an IB student.
You have no idea how shitty it is, i’ve no more social life, i’ve no sleep. Ive to turn down next year trips to London and Berlin because there’s no way i can cope. I only have enough time and energy for school alone. Im even going to quit my 3 year job of ballet pianist (no income!), stop playing in SNYO and OMM, which will probably kill me with the love of orchestra music i have. Yes, i want to be a professional orchestra player. I never knew the true meaning of rushing deadlines until this year. So many times, rushing essays out through the night with cups of Lipton Tea and even Nescafe (causing me to be nausea and cant eat for an entire day cause im caffeine-intolerant) until the very last minute through assembly just so i can hand in on the dot. so many so many times, coming home late after continuous orchestra rehearsals every night, by the time i settle down it’s midnight, and then i start work. All those shitty nights when i really just break down, then quickly wipe away my tears so as not to waste time and continue doing work. Missing out on dinners at home.
Okay and the above 3 big reasons are why i think i deserve to wallow in self-pity. Then i decided no, self-pity is selfish, it’s self indulgent and silly.
So i came up with reasons why i SHOULD NOT wallow in self-pity:
1. I have Christ, what can be more important? Christ-centred life, not self-centred life!!!
2. Im going to have an awesome 18th birthday party!
3. I have many nice pink things. Pink macbook, pink texas calculator, pink room with pink walls and floral curtains and floral bedsheets/pillow case, pink hello kitty desk lamp
4. I have tons of clothes in my wardrobe yet to be worn out
5. I am not broke
6. My hair is always in good shape/colour
7. I have done 1500 words of essay today (!!!!)
8. I can bake.
9. I have a wonderful supportive family, both immediate and extended
10. I have tons of wonderful friends who truly love and care for me
11. I have people reading my blog and twitter about my rants and i should not burden them
12. It’s holiday right now
13. Im not that fat actually, its just my hips. If i dont look down, it’s fine. I can wear skirts.
14. I had chicken soup for dinner.
15. It’s time for me to shower
Okay and my mood is lightened up! Thank you all for listening to my rants and im not going to wallow in self-pity anymore, going to shower!!!
Wednesday, December 14, 2011
I GOT PIMPLE :(
but i photoshopped it away heehee cause other than the pimple i thought my skin looked quite radiant that day so camwhore a bit still can
heehee you cant see it. anyway here's the regular update on my hair!
this is the current colour it has faded to -___-
not dry as grass though it looks like, but oh well im fine with it.
still not sure if i'll cut it away or dye back black when sch reopens.
which is in 2 weeks :((((
okay end with a chio picture.
and i had waffles for breakfast/dinner the other day!
substitute milk with soy milk and it tasted even better yay!
everyday is busy day busy busy busy
heehee you cant see it. anyway here's the regular update on my hair!this is the current colour it has faded to -___-
not dry as grass though it looks like, but oh well im fine with it.
still not sure if i'll cut it away or dye back black when sch reopens.
which is in 2 weeks :((((
okay end with a chio picture.
and i had waffles for breakfast/dinner the other day!
substitute milk with soy milk and it tasted even better yay!
everyday is busy day busy busy busy
Monday, December 12, 2011
weekend in KL
hi guys im back from weekend in kl!
photos are mainly food....
$10 yoghurt that we had, and it was very good!
though i wouldnt buy it again cause the price is simply too much.
strawberry, blueberry, cranberry yum!
and the best lemon tea i've ever had.
we tried this latest food craze in KL, called snowflake. It's very popular with the young people and sells taiwanese desserts which has... bubble tea ingredients in it. My brother ordered this bowl called Japanese delight or something, and as you can see, it has green tea chewy thingy, red beans and bubble tea pearls, with soy bean blended ice.
food at the wedding.
i wore my infinity convertible dress which i was actually saving to wear on my birthday, and changed pattern every half an hour hahaha
and i bought 12 items with RM 200!
im so happy with all my buys from time square! love x10000
5 dresses, 2 tops, 3 shirts, 2 bottoms.
we split up to shop, and at the end when i showed everybody my buys, they were like WAH WAH WHY I NEVER SEE THIS ONE AND THAT ONE
and i sold my harley davidson tank top :( aiya anyway i bought so much, and my cousin only got 1 dress!
how in the world can anybody only get ONE DRESS from times square i really dont know
everytime i shop there i'll confirm buy a lot a lot
furry long sweater/dress (RM 10), green dress ( RM 3), colourful dress (cousin bought for me)
this furry sweater is so soft to touch you'll practically melt!!! though its so impractical to get it, but i got it anyway. only $4!!!!
3 shirts (3 for RM 50) and 2 bottoms (RM 25 each).
i saw fep selling the blue skirt for $30! siao rip off or not. THATS WHY BOYCOTT FEP OKAY their prices too ridiculous nowadays
2 skater dresses, RM 25 and RM30.
when i saw them both i knew i had to get it straight away, and sure enough they looked so fab when i tried them on!
and this cropped top too, which i wore today. RM 15.
okay happy already, can last me until end of cny yay!
photos are mainly food....
$10 yoghurt that we had, and it was very good!
though i wouldnt buy it again cause the price is simply too much.
strawberry, blueberry, cranberry yum!
and the best lemon tea i've ever had.
we tried this latest food craze in KL, called snowflake. It's very popular with the young people and sells taiwanese desserts which has... bubble tea ingredients in it. My brother ordered this bowl called Japanese delight or something, and as you can see, it has green tea chewy thingy, red beans and bubble tea pearls, with soy bean blended ice.
food at the wedding.
i wore my infinity convertible dress which i was actually saving to wear on my birthday, and changed pattern every half an hour hahaha
and i bought 12 items with RM 200!
im so happy with all my buys from time square! love x10000
5 dresses, 2 tops, 3 shirts, 2 bottoms.
we split up to shop, and at the end when i showed everybody my buys, they were like WAH WAH WHY I NEVER SEE THIS ONE AND THAT ONE
and i sold my harley davidson tank top :( aiya anyway i bought so much, and my cousin only got 1 dress!
how in the world can anybody only get ONE DRESS from times square i really dont know
everytime i shop there i'll confirm buy a lot a lot
furry long sweater/dress (RM 10), green dress ( RM 3), colourful dress (cousin bought for me)
this furry sweater is so soft to touch you'll practically melt!!! though its so impractical to get it, but i got it anyway. only $4!!!!
3 shirts (3 for RM 50) and 2 bottoms (RM 25 each).
i saw fep selling the blue skirt for $30! siao rip off or not. THATS WHY BOYCOTT FEP OKAY their prices too ridiculous nowadays
2 skater dresses, RM 25 and RM30.
when i saw them both i knew i had to get it straight away, and sure enough they looked so fab when i tried them on!
and this cropped top too, which i wore today. RM 15.
okay happy already, can last me until end of cny yay!
Friday, December 9, 2011
18th Birthday Wishlist
updated: 3rd Jan
hi all!
so i've come up with a 18th birthday wishlist, and i always think wishlists are super useful so that others will know what you want, and it saves time on both sides.
how horrid is it when somebody spends a lot of time getting you a present, and it turns out to be something you dont like at all!
so to avoid that sort of situation, here are some stuffs that i've been wanting, and if its within your budget then you can consider getting it for me!
Marc Jacobs laptop case! omg this colour and design is to die for.
i just want a new laptop case. the current one im using right now is a black and white cheapo one. ok actually not very cheapo, it was $20.
hair care products. as you all know, how badly my hair is bleached and its very damaged :( i need hair care products, intense hair conditioner, hair mask, hair oil, whatever k
a cross necklace,
and cross bracelet
polaroid album (around...$20)
body shop strawberry gift set! $29.95.
as previously mentioned here during oct,
i would like a name necklace. like the one below, i dont mind either gold or silver, and with cursive letterings. this one is found from mynamenecklace.com or something, and it's like $30 with free shipping.
CANDLES! okay i never knew i was into this kind of aromatherapy thing, actually im not, but that day i went to my friend's place and the whole house just smelled so soothing and wonderful, that i thought it would be nice to have candles in my room sometime too.
bought this charm bracelet for my friend, from a flea. It was the only one left, so i couldnt buy another one for myself. Really love this and ive been thinking about it since then!
Alex Mulberry Satchel bag. fake or not i dont care.
i really like this design a lot!!! I need a black handbag but i like the brown colour too!
bobelock fiberglass viola case $300
and of course a viola. I've been looking for quite some time but one within my budget (about $6000) and requirements (nice sound, which is very subjective; and the way it fits) is very hard to come by :(
i havent had anything from Tiffany & co before, and i think it would be lovely to have a necklace for 18th birthday. Like this one below. around $200-300 i think.
Or a bracelet/bangle. These pieces of jewellery are so classic and timeless. Jewellery like this lasts forever.
this prada wallet! $750
i love this pair of jeffrey campbells! (around $160 i think)
and i've yet to own a pair of campbells yet...
other brands that would be safe to get me anything from it would be this, or vouchers would be better still so i can choose for myself:
typo is a stationary shop at... ion i think, cant remember where it was when i went. It's by bodyshop, and sell very nice stationaries at super affordable prices.
okay forever new is NOT part of forever 21. it's way more pricey and sells many nice dresses. located at raffles city.
haha dont know if daiso got vouchers or not, but daiso sells everything and is super useful!
and www.sheetmusicplus.com! there're always new music scores to get, and they have gift certs too!
and i guess you can always get essentials like... foolscap paper, pens, markers (the colour kind that can write on films), instax films (hello kitty borders!), flour, eggs, butter etc which are things that i really need and will use.. BUT A BIT THE WEIRD RIGHT IF YOU GET PEOPLE THIS KIND OF THINGS FOR THEIR 18TH BIRTHDAY.
im not really a card person, so i dont keep cards, even though im very touched whenever i read cards, but ya i dont keep them. but you can still go ahead and write me a long touching letter! hmm... i think i'll really like a video for me. a funny one, a touching one, one with all my photos compiled, one with all my friends in it, etc.
strictly no-nos:
SOFT TOYS. and other non-practical and space-consuming items
kthxbye!
hi all!
so i've come up with a 18th birthday wishlist, and i always think wishlists are super useful so that others will know what you want, and it saves time on both sides.
how horrid is it when somebody spends a lot of time getting you a present, and it turns out to be something you dont like at all!
so to avoid that sort of situation, here are some stuffs that i've been wanting, and if its within your budget then you can consider getting it for me!
Marc Jacobs laptop case! omg this colour and design is to die for.
i just want a new laptop case. the current one im using right now is a black and white cheapo one. ok actually not very cheapo, it was $20.
hair care products. as you all know, how badly my hair is bleached and its very damaged :( i need hair care products, intense hair conditioner, hair mask, hair oil, whatever k
a cross necklace,
and cross bracelet
polaroid album (around...$20)
body shop strawberry gift set! $29.95.
as previously mentioned here during oct,
i would like a name necklace. like the one below, i dont mind either gold or silver, and with cursive letterings. this one is found from mynamenecklace.com or something, and it's like $30 with free shipping.
CANDLES! okay i never knew i was into this kind of aromatherapy thing, actually im not, but that day i went to my friend's place and the whole house just smelled so soothing and wonderful, that i thought it would be nice to have candles in my room sometime too.
bought this charm bracelet for my friend, from a flea. It was the only one left, so i couldnt buy another one for myself. Really love this and ive been thinking about it since then!
Alex Mulberry Satchel bag. fake or not i dont care.
i really like this design a lot!!! I need a black handbag but i like the brown colour too!
bobelock fiberglass viola case $300
and of course a viola. I've been looking for quite some time but one within my budget (about $6000) and requirements (nice sound, which is very subjective; and the way it fits) is very hard to come by :(
i havent had anything from Tiffany & co before, and i think it would be lovely to have a necklace for 18th birthday. Like this one below. around $200-300 i think.
Or a bracelet/bangle. These pieces of jewellery are so classic and timeless. Jewellery like this lasts forever.
this prada wallet! $750
i love this pair of jeffrey campbells! (around $160 i think)
and i've yet to own a pair of campbells yet...
other brands that would be safe to get me anything from it would be this, or vouchers would be better still so i can choose for myself:
typo is a stationary shop at... ion i think, cant remember where it was when i went. It's by bodyshop, and sell very nice stationaries at super affordable prices.
okay forever new is NOT part of forever 21. it's way more pricey and sells many nice dresses. located at raffles city.
haha dont know if daiso got vouchers or not, but daiso sells everything and is super useful!
and www.sheetmusicplus.com! there're always new music scores to get, and they have gift certs too!
and i guess you can always get essentials like... foolscap paper, pens, markers (the colour kind that can write on films), instax films (hello kitty borders!), flour, eggs, butter etc which are things that i really need and will use.. BUT A BIT THE WEIRD RIGHT IF YOU GET PEOPLE THIS KIND OF THINGS FOR THEIR 18TH BIRTHDAY.
im not really a card person, so i dont keep cards, even though im very touched whenever i read cards, but ya i dont keep them. but you can still go ahead and write me a long touching letter! hmm... i think i'll really like a video for me. a funny one, a touching one, one with all my photos compiled, one with all my friends in it, etc.
strictly no-nos:
SOFT TOYS. and other non-practical and space-consuming items
kthxbye!
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