service-learning.

honestly, im so burned out after rushing both history IA/lit essay last night till 3am, im ready to crash to bed by midnight. but then, i suddenly received a message on fb saying that

"due to unforeseen circumstances, GPS laos will have to postpone to 5th Dec"

wtf?

i definitely have a problem with that.
SNYO concert is on 7th dec, and coming back on the initial date, 4th dec is already quite intense.
it meant missing 1/3 of the rehearsals (all the important tuttis), and coming back 3 days before concert.

that aside, being away for an entire 2 weeks is insane.
with all these workload piled on us, this can hardly be called a holiday.
and in any case, this is going to be the only "holiday" we have until end of next year, because it's going to be chiong all the way.

look, everybody in school are already like freaking zombies. we are so tired.
we are so, so tired all the time, even when we have just handed up our essays.
i dont even have time to rest. the only time im allowed to, is when im sick.

my grades are not like shuchen, they are not fantastic.

2 months of holidays - 1 week = 7 weeks.
That's because school have been extended one more week this year.
7 weeks - 1 week (Malaysia) = 6 weeks.
6 weeks - 2 weeks (GPS) = 4 weeks.

4 weeks might seem a lot, but really, it's just 4 mondays.
if you allocate one subject a day to revise, 6 subjects = 6 days. and fine, sunday is off day, but not really because that's the day for church, tuition and viola lesson.
so you get to revise like, math for 4 times. great.

im not saying i hate service-learning or whatever. if i do, i wouldnt have raved about it for an entire month after coming back from cambodia last year, i wouldnt have wanted to donate all of my birthday money to a charity, i wouldnt have chaired gotong royong twice.

but did the teachers take into account, the precious time we are left?
CAS requires 150 hours. 14 days x 24 hours = 336 hours, that's well over requirements.
and because we're only allowed to fulfil up to a maximum of 75% this year, meaning next year we still have to do something about our hours despite going on a full trip of 14 days.

CAS is supposed to help with our grades, not pull us down.
dont you think 14 days is really too long? i think so.

i dont care, even though i handed in my deposit and even though i took my jabs, im still going to ask for withdrawal from laos trip tomorrow.

wish me luck. 12.30am, left with 5.5 hours of sleep.